A quick preview

There are a few things coming up that I wanted to mention, and though they are still a week or two off I thought Id hope on here now and talk about them because life is crazy busy and I don't know if I will get the chance later on.

Hannah's 5th Birthday is coming up. Yes, we already had the big party and celebrated because daddy was home and the one thing I have learned is you never know when and how long daddy will be here because there is always something like travel for work, or just work in general with its crazy schedules. I still can not believe she is going to be 5. I remember ever birthday and see how much she has changed and I am excited but sad all at the same time.  She has taken a passion for books. She loves Barnes and Noble. To sit and read books for hours if we would let her. We usually let her buy one each time and she struggles over what to get. We read to her many times a day too. I am hoping that this is a very good sign at what is to come for school and that she will do well. She still has her fashion sense too. She loves to shop and points out shirts and pants and shoes she wants and picks out things she wants to wear in the morning. She loves dresses, which is new since there was a time she hatted them. Just the other day we were at Costco and she saw a cute outfit she said "she had to have" she begged and pleaded till we caved in. That would be my daughter, a little me. A shopaholic. We still can not get her to wear hair bows that clip in or a cute headband. She refuses and I never push. Maybe bribe a little which never works, but never do I push. She is a stubborn one just like her daddy, and me, and her brother. I think that her as a teenager will be trying because of that fact. So yeah its wonderful to see her grow and change and learn. I do sometimes finding it harder because she is our baby. I think that is why I struggle with the thought of her going to kindergarten in the fall. She has become sassy and is starting to get an attitude too. The other day as we walked I held out my had for her and she yanked hers away from me. I told her we were out where it was busy and she needed to take mine so she did not get lost and she told me "Mom (not mommy) I am big enough to walk without you holding my hand" and gave me a look that normally belongs on a teenagers face. Don't get me wrong, normally she is sweet and loving but its not all the time.

The other thing is my wedding anniversary. 7 years on July 4th. It never feels like its been 7 years. Even with two kids and moving through 3 states and 5 houses. I think this has allot to do with the fact he is never home and away on deployments and such. I can say I am truly happy. I look forward to life and our future and am excited by it. Even that day seems like yesterday. I remember flying into Jacksonville, FL. I remember walking down the corridor to where Chris was waiting for me all cute in his working whites. I remember hugging him and the drive back and him giving me a tour of the base. I remember the next day getting ready and meeting Chris's friends for the first time and going to the little church. Chris and his 2 friends were there and one of their wives was there and we had the sweetest ceremony outside surrounded by flowers and plant sculptures. It was a prefect summer day. I never was scared, or nervous. just happy. Afterwards we all went to Olive Garden to celebrate and then Chris and I went to see a movie and then fireworks down on the Saint Mary's waterfront. It was one of the best days in my life and I can say with having the small wedding and the big wedding, the small one was far better and special. Maybe I feel that way because the big wedding for us we were already married, but it did not come close to holding what our first wedding did. Now almost every year my husband is here to celebrate our anniversary its kind of a tradition to go see a movie and go to Olive garden followed by fireworks. Its our thing and I love it. 

Other than that life has been crazy, busy, hectic and wonderful in some ways and sad in others. somethings are going on that make me realized there is a certain aspect of military life, at least for me that as a wife you don't really hear about. Im not going into details but I have realized that its one of the hardest things for me being a military wife which makes deployments harder and being away from family harder. Maybe another day Ill approach this subject for today however Im sticking to the happier notes of this blog and leaving it at that.

Summer is almost here. 4 more days until Jordan is out of School. He is happy and counting down, and I am sad and realizing that next fall I will be kissing both my kids as they head of to the school and I will feel lost with no kids in the house during the day.

where to begin?

I know, I know. Its been a while since my last blog. What can I say other than I have been MIA. But now I am here, writing again.

Life has been busy. Very busy. So busy that at days end I fall into bed practically asleep. It will stay busy for some time too. Every day and every weekend is full of things to do. Im not sure where I last left off, what was going on and I don't have that much time to play catch up so Im not going to bother re-reading past blogs. 

So what has been going on. Well we attended Hannah's Kindergarten orientation where I went into panic mode on "oh my God. We have to do this, and get that, and work on this" apart of me wants to keep her home for one more year, to be selfish. I mean already years have flown by and once she heads off to school I know they will fly by even faster. Also Hannah's 5th birthday party is this weekend. That alone has kept me busy with planning and buying and cleaning and wrapping. You get the point. She is so excited and I am stressed. Here is hoping for warm weather since its a water party with slip n slides, pools, sprinklers, water guns and balloons. 

Jordan is getting ready for the end of school. He still has 2 weeks left. He tried out for a talent show with his girlfriend to sing a HS musical song, we should find out today if he made it though from what I hear they only take the best, silly since this is elementary school we are talking about. 

I signed up to Volunteer. I have been putting myself out there in hopes to cure my incredible shyness. Lets hope it works.

Now for the best news of all, I no longer sleep alone at night in my big King sized bed. My husband is home and I am so happy. We have been going non stop. Seeing movies, and going out. It feels so good to know he is safe and sound at home with me. To see his face and hug him. The kids were excited too of course. I feel bad though because they fight over him. "Daddy come here, daddy do this, daddy lets go out" and no like we don't have enough to do we are planning our first Washington camping trip. 

So yeah, thats life and if I go MIA again well sorry but I am a busy girl.

OMG, the sun really does exist.

So today is one of those days where I need a man around. I know that sounds sad but damn it if I did not need a few things done that my wimpy ass self can not do alone. First off I went to weed wack the backyard. See due to all the rain I have yet to be able to mow or do anything to my back yard, now that its sunny and dry I can finally get back there and make it look as best I can but within a weeks time my grass turned into a forest and is so tall I can not even open the back gate to get the mower in it. This is where I need a weed wacker because I can walk through the house with that and get the grass around the gate short to get the mower in. Well I go out there and since we have a electric one because our yard is not that big I plug it in and nothing happens. Why, because the wire thing in it is gone. So now I'm left to wonder what i need to buy, how to put it in and no one knows. Damn me for never being curious enough to ask my husband to teach me the ins and outs of things he usually does. I need my grass cut to find the dog crap that Gracie left back there because its hiding in the grass, and I also need it cut to do my big project, which again is something I need a guy for, or a few good friends who are willing to commit to this project. I want to move our backyard patio stuff up to the front courtyard. I already moved the chairs, but the table needs to people and a gate that opens to get out of the backyard. I also need to get the grill out which I can do but again I need a gate that opens. Then I need to somehow get the table into the courtyard, which may require it coming apart into pieces or someone who can lift it far above their heads. So see I need help, and everyone on this beautiful, sunny 75 degree day is gone and I am left wanting to swear up a storm because when I set my mind to something I would like to get it done soon before it drive me crazy. I also decided I want a pretty gazebo like tent to go over the patio furniture up front and that again requires strength I don't have and another pair of hands to put the thing together.

On a different note it looks like I am coming to MN for apart of the summer. I'm not sure if I am thrilled about this or not. I want to see friends and family. I'm looking forward to taking the kids to the zoo and Hannah to the American girl store and Jordan to Lego land and being able to eat at places they don't have around here and I miss ALLOT!!! But I hate not having my own things, my friends here and I like the summers here because its the only time its nice here and we can spend time outside. Oh well, either way I win and lose.

Hannah's birthday party is fastly approaching. I have all her gifts purchased with the exception of an American girl outfit or two. Were having just a small get together with about 30 people, only 9 of them are kids, 5 are teenagers and the rest friends of the family. I am hoping for sun to set up sprinklers and slip and slides outside and we are just doing snacks, cake and Ice cream. Hannah is excited. She has been nagging me since Jordan's birthday about her party. Its always weird to realize how fast they grow up and how much they have changed. Its sad and exciting all at the same time.

Now that I sat down for a break all my energy has gone out the window, damn that sucks.

much needed sleep, and the lack there of.

I am so tired that I am wondering how I will ever make it through the day without dozing off. I seriously only got 2 hours of sleep, and yes I could still be asleep but for some reason my body wont let me, just like last night as I tried and tried to fall asleep and I could not. My brain was on overdrive and even though my body felt totally exhausted my brain just kept going with thoughts. Even 2 Tylenol pm's did nothing to help. So yeah today will be a totally awesome day I think what with me having twenty million things to do and my body wanting nothing more then to sleep and not participate in those errands that need to be run or chores that need to be completed. I mean I am so tired that the idea of a shower makes me want to cry because I really don't think I have the strength to stand for one. Wow, I so sound like a very old person suddenly. Please pray that I don't fall asleep into my pizza tonight when I got out with friends, that would not be good and not to mention very embarrassing.

So yeah now that I am done with my little rant on sleepless nights and a zombie like me I think I really should stop procrastinating and get on with the day because the longer I sit here and wait the harder it will be, or so I think. 

I so just want to crawl back into bed and sleep.

Lost in a daze. Or something like that.

I hate to admit it but lately my life has been boring. I feel like I am wandering around in a daze. I find myself willing the day to be over and yet at the same time I also feel very busy. I guess Its because for so long I was on the go. Away from home. Running errands, hanging out with friends, dinner out, shopping, getting our nails done. There was always something. My mom visiting, Sub ball, convention, birthday parties and so on and now I have been a home body. I have cleaning and laundry and planning of things like Hannah's birthday party or the trip I might be taking for a summer vacation in MN. Its not like I don't have things to do, its just I miss the constant on the go way things were. Even today was busy. Let me give you a run down.

Woke up late, got Jordan off to school but barely.

Made breakfast, ate breakfast, cleaned up breakfast for Hannah and me.

Got us ready and dressed for the day.

Did some laundry, wiped down the counters and picked up the house.

Ran to Wal-mart.

Had friends over to deal with some last minute things from my Cookie Lee Party I had last week and talked with those friends.

Watched my friends kids.

Said goodbye to my friends kids and then watched another friends kids.

Made dinner, ate dinner, cleaned up after dinner.

Played with the kids and the dog.

Did more laundry.

Talked on the phone with my mom, with a few friends and yelled at a sales person.

Gave Hannah a bath.

Put the kids to bed.

And now here I am. Those are usual days. Running errands, cleaning, Laundry, friends, kids, dog, working out. In all reality I am busy, I am doing things and I am not sinking into oblivion with no life. So why do I feel so bored? Why do my days seem to stretch on for what seems like forever? 

Time for a change

So we are looking at moving out of housing. I have already gotten in touch with a place that helps find rental homes and I have seen a few places I really like online now its just going to see them in person, oh and finding a place that we can afford and will take a dog. 

I'm not crazy about the idea of actually moving our stuff. I hate that part, packing, moving, unpacking. However the idea of maybe having a bigger back yard and a fourth bedroom again is appealing. I would say we would buy, but lets face it we don't plan on staying here unless there is no other option so why would we buy? 

So yeah, that is what is going on with me. I also am looking at a possible job prospect, so wish me luck on that. A new place to live and a new job, big things are a coming. 

Tuesday morning babbling

If you were to look into my closet you would see one color more prominent then the rest. That color is blue. There is a shit ton of blue in my closet and yesterday as I shopped with a friend I noticed that was what I went for. I also like whites, blacks and grey. Everything I wanted was blue. Another thing that was pointed out is I have to many sweatshirts because it was also what I went for on our shopping trip, and what was even better is those adorable, comfy sweatshirts were on sale, but I refrained and walked away (after much pouting) I did pretty well and stuck as close to the gift cards as possible. I did have a close call at American Eagle when I had a struggle between two outfits and only the amount to buy one. I still want the other one. A cute pair of black trouser shorts and a cute black and white cami style top with lace. I'm rather sad because damn that outfit was cute, and to be fair I don't own a pair of casual and everyday black shorts like those and I could dress the top up or down. See, there I go trying to talk myself into an outfit I really should be talking myself out of, or at least talking myself out of until next payday. Damn my bad luck for never wining the lottery. I'm off to get dressed in my new blue t-shirt. 

Oh and a completely different note I am so sick of wind, cold and rain. Yesterday was horrible and icky and I want some sun so I don't look like death in shorts. Where is fun spring weather because lately it feels like fall and Its so not helping my mood. I need my sunshine.