Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Motherhood equals craziness

Do you ever have one of those days where your kids are just driving you nuts? You guessed it, I'm having one of those days. It started with Hannah getting up before me and playing with her peg puzzles next to my side of the bed, then leaving all the pieces there for me to step on when I woke up. Then there was Jordan not wanting to get up this morning for school and going back to bed so that was a struggle getting him out the door and off to school. Then the dog wants to be a butt head and not come inside but would rather sit on top of my new patio table, and I know Gracie is not my kids, but she is my dog, and there for apart of the family. Hannah all day has been testing her limits, and with all there is to do around here I don't have time for her to be a little stinker.

Now don't get me wrong, I love my kids, they are adorable, sweet children most of the time, but today its like they woke up and thought "lets push Mommy's buttons so she goes crazy" Why couldn't they do this when Chris was here, not off on a work related travel trip, at least then I can have help or get a small break when he is home at night. I should be a pro, I mean he's traveled lots of times, and done many deployments so it just being me and the kids is not un-common, but today Id say is just a bad day for me, and a stressed, busy day too. Now if Hannah would just go upstairs and clean her room for me things would get better. She helps pick up at everyone Else's house after playing but here she assumes Ill pick it up for her, a habit I need to break.

Speaking of my Angels who have some temper meltdowns and a sneaky side to them occasionally, something happened. Hannah has always been good when we go out. Never that I can recall has she had a meltdown in public and thrown a temper tantrum. Jordan did when he was younger, but Hannah never had, until last weekend that is. We were at Toys r us, and they had a display of playhouses up and one was a Disney princess playhouse that she loved. She played in it for along time, and didn't want to get out when I told her we had to go get what we came for. Well as we were walking by the playhouse again there was another little girl in there playing and Hannah lost it. She threw herself on the ground and started to cry and scream "get her out of my house mommy, that's my house, she cant play in my house" I at this point picked her crumpled self off the floor, handed Chris the toy he was to buy and took her to the car where she continued her fit. Yeah, my face was red with embarrassment to say the least. The funny thing was we had already picked up the same playhouse for Hannah as a birthday present. I hope that was a one time thing, but she is only 3 (hey, she turns 4 in a month) she is still young and probably will throw many more fits, especially as she is as I said earlier pushing the limits.

And why does she right now feel the need to pull out the clothing I just put into the suitcase and throw them on the floor? I have a feeling its going to take me forever to pack up the 4 of us, and I hate packing.

I need a spa day.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

My Randomness for the day

Its still really nice out, and gasp, its supposed to get into the 80's (at least last I checked) with no forecast of rain (again last I checked) I love this weather. Its not too hot, there is a breeze and its a perfect day. I have all the windows open, Ive missed that over the winter months here. The breeze drifting in and out of the house, hearing the birds first thing in the morning as you wake up, this is my kind of weather.

Anyway that's not the point of my post, just a pleasant up side to my day.

So I am going to tell you a secret, but don't laugh okay, I know I'm not the only person who does this. Ive already started Christmas shopping for the kids. See, I think I hear some of you laughing. To defend myself Ive so far only bought things on sale, and for Hannah seeing as Jordan is at the hard stage to buy for and his taste is always changing, where as Hannah is in the stage of all things girl that usually lasts a long time. Toys r us in town had a huge clearance with an additional 20% off that, so we bought things we knew she would like. Hey, in days were everything but our paychecks is going up every penny saved is something, and that's from someone who never used to clip coupons or search for deals. Plus we always have started early, never this early but it helps not putting things on credit cards and still giving the kids a good Christmas, and debt is one things we don't want to be in for future goals of course. The tricky part of this is hiding what we buy from little eyes. Our house isn't that big and there isn't many places we can hide things so here is hopping under our bed (well the things that fit under there) will work. And yes, I'm well aware I have issues.

Speaking of little houses I really miss my old house. Well okay its not my house anymore seeing as we sold it making it someone Else's house, but I still miss it. The huge backyard with the high fence, the big garage and attic, the lovely big fridge that cost more then my wedding ring, all the big rooms, okay you get the idea. It was the best house EVER! well for us it was the best, and going from that to military housing and losing lots of square feet and going from a big backyard to a little one sucks. I keep wanting to buy a house, all our friends are moving out and I have the bug to buy too but I know it defeats the point, we wont be here long enough (2 more years, remember?) and to buy a house here for the same sq feet we are currently living in would cost us $1600-1700 a month not including utility's. So I can wait, and shoo the house buying bug off my shoulder and wait and save like planned. I can do it, yes I can....but I still miss my old house, and GA for that matter, just not the bugs, I cant begin to tell you of all the icky Black widow spiders that liked to make homes in the garage or on the outside of the house...I don't miss those. I have shivers up my spine just thinking about it.

I know, this is a very random blog full of random stuff, but I'm bored and avoiding doing the things that have to be done.

A day in the life of me

I decided to clean out the van yesterday while my husband was at work (seeing as he took his truck for once) with Gas prices being 3.83 a gallon here usually he drives the van seeing as though it doesn't get the best gas mileage it gets better then his Titan and his work is 20 miles away. Yeah, my husband can trash a vehicle. He came home to find me in the van and had a look like "shit, am I in trouble" he wasn't, though I teased him plenty about what a slob he can be. Guess I will have to make it a daily thing to clean out the van so it doesn't get that bad again. Husbands, that's all I have to say (as I shake my head in wonder)

As I am out cleaning out the van (because its so nice out, it feels like spring and I love it) I had Gracie out front with me on her leash (our Golden retriever) I have a small patch of dirt I guess you can call a garden up there with wood chips, and some plants and statues and tulips. Wait, I should say I had plants and tulips. Gracie decided she wanted to eat the tulips and took a bite out of each one then chewed on the plants branches (not the leaves) and no, the plants aren't toxic to dogs, I have checked to make sure. I wonder what goes threw her head that makes her think "I want to eat that smelly thing"

Hannah had fun helping me clean. Her Job was to help me wipe down the dashboard and center console. She loves to do things like this and the smile on her face was so full of pride. It helped having her in the car with me verses being in the front yard/garage or drive way where I had to keep an eye to make sure she didn't run into the road, and though she knows full well she isn't aloud in the road because of cars 3 year olds don't always listen.

And to top off the day I had to yell at a friends kid. I know, I am mean. Jordan walks a friends little girl to school and she doesn't listen. I could hear him this morning from the bedroom window yelling at her to get out of the woods that separate our house and the road, and I could see them, her weaving in and out of the tall bushes and trees and him on the sidewalk calling to her. Hes had problems with her running off and not listening or walking so slow he worries they will miss school. So today I had to run out there and tell her to listen to Jordan and hurry to school before they were late. I think Jordan might be done walking her to school from now on.

Now I'm sitting here tired, I didn't sleep well at all last night, just like every night wondering what to do today. There is so much to do before our MN trip and I just don't know where to begin, plus all the errands. There really isn't enough time in the day.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Yep, I did it again, I blame the OCD

Yes, once again I have deleted all my old posts and am starting fresh. I have a touch of OCD just a touch, and well, my old posts were bugging me and so when that happens they get deleted. Bare with me though, because here I am starting again. Blogging about life as a military wife, a mom, a friend, a daughter and everything else that goes on here. A place where I can ramble about whatever I want, no matter how stupid it may be. A place where I can vent.

My friends no me that read this, an my family, but for those of you who don't let me explain myself.

obviously you got the part I am a female, and the part I am a military wife, and have kids. My husband is in the navy, 7 years this Saturday. He is a first Class Nav ET and we are currently on our second sea going command. Well he is, I'm just along for he ride. We lived in Kingsland, GA for 5 years. (if you don't know where it is look at a map, just north off Jacksonville, FL on the coast right across the FL/GA state line) it was a tiny military town on interstate 95 mainly consisting off gas stations and hotels and fast food places for those traveling to FL on vacation. Chris was stationed on a Nuclear Sub called the USS Wyoming. After 5 years of living there and a brief stop over for some schooling in Groton, CT we moved all the way cross country to Silverdale, WA (Bangor Submarine base) again look on a map west from Seattle across the Puget sound and you will see us, another tiny military town. This time Chris is in Special ops on the USS Jimmy Carter. We will be here for another 2 years, so yes I am a military wife and I am pretty sure I will be one till Chris retires as even though we play with the idea of getting out in 2010 we are 90% sure he will make a life out of the Navy.

So how did I meet my Husband. I think I was 14, it was 1994 and we were introduced by a mutual friend and we became friends. We went to different high schools, and he was a year older then me and we were total opposites, he so wasn't my type at all but he was a good friend and we had lots of great times together just hanging out. We dated on and off over the years and in 2002 while he was away in the Navy he proposed to me and later that year we got married. This July we will celebrate our 6Th wedding anniversary.

And then come the kids, Jordan who is 9 and Hannah who turns 4 next month. They keep me busy. I had Jordan when I was in HS, and I call me my angel because having him made me grow up, made me change who I was and become stronger and a better person, and Hannah too was a special blessing. I really wasn't supposed to have any more kids because of possible complications that were life threatening to me (and possibly the baby) but we really wanted to have at least try for one more, and we had Hannah in June 2004. I was lucky and in good care and both of us were fine and safe and no problems. They are everything too me as most kids are to their parents and I consider myself lucky each and every day (even those days where they drive you up the wall, or spill chocolate milk all over the sofa or cut the dogs hair)

So that's me. Navy wife and mom to two kids and a dog (we cant forget the dog, she really thinks she is one of us)