OMG, the sun really does exist.

So today is one of those days where I need a man around. I know that sounds sad but damn it if I did not need a few things done that my wimpy ass self can not do alone. First off I went to weed wack the backyard. See due to all the rain I have yet to be able to mow or do anything to my back yard, now that its sunny and dry I can finally get back there and make it look as best I can but within a weeks time my grass turned into a forest and is so tall I can not even open the back gate to get the mower in it. This is where I need a weed wacker because I can walk through the house with that and get the grass around the gate short to get the mower in. Well I go out there and since we have a electric one because our yard is not that big I plug it in and nothing happens. Why, because the wire thing in it is gone. So now I'm left to wonder what i need to buy, how to put it in and no one knows. Damn me for never being curious enough to ask my husband to teach me the ins and outs of things he usually does. I need my grass cut to find the dog crap that Gracie left back there because its hiding in the grass, and I also need it cut to do my big project, which again is something I need a guy for, or a few good friends who are willing to commit to this project. I want to move our backyard patio stuff up to the front courtyard. I already moved the chairs, but the table needs to people and a gate that opens to get out of the backyard. I also need to get the grill out which I can do but again I need a gate that opens. Then I need to somehow get the table into the courtyard, which may require it coming apart into pieces or someone who can lift it far above their heads. So see I need help, and everyone on this beautiful, sunny 75 degree day is gone and I am left wanting to swear up a storm because when I set my mind to something I would like to get it done soon before it drive me crazy. I also decided I want a pretty gazebo like tent to go over the patio furniture up front and that again requires strength I don't have and another pair of hands to put the thing together.

On a different note it looks like I am coming to MN for apart of the summer. I'm not sure if I am thrilled about this or not. I want to see friends and family. I'm looking forward to taking the kids to the zoo and Hannah to the American girl store and Jordan to Lego land and being able to eat at places they don't have around here and I miss ALLOT!!! But I hate not having my own things, my friends here and I like the summers here because its the only time its nice here and we can spend time outside. Oh well, either way I win and lose.

Hannah's birthday party is fastly approaching. I have all her gifts purchased with the exception of an American girl outfit or two. Were having just a small get together with about 30 people, only 9 of them are kids, 5 are teenagers and the rest friends of the family. I am hoping for sun to set up sprinklers and slip and slides outside and we are just doing snacks, cake and Ice cream. Hannah is excited. She has been nagging me since Jordan's birthday about her party. Its always weird to realize how fast they grow up and how much they have changed. Its sad and exciting all at the same time.

Now that I sat down for a break all my energy has gone out the window, damn that sucks.

much needed sleep, and the lack there of.

I am so tired that I am wondering how I will ever make it through the day without dozing off. I seriously only got 2 hours of sleep, and yes I could still be asleep but for some reason my body wont let me, just like last night as I tried and tried to fall asleep and I could not. My brain was on overdrive and even though my body felt totally exhausted my brain just kept going with thoughts. Even 2 Tylenol pm's did nothing to help. So yeah today will be a totally awesome day I think what with me having twenty million things to do and my body wanting nothing more then to sleep and not participate in those errands that need to be run or chores that need to be completed. I mean I am so tired that the idea of a shower makes me want to cry because I really don't think I have the strength to stand for one. Wow, I so sound like a very old person suddenly. Please pray that I don't fall asleep into my pizza tonight when I got out with friends, that would not be good and not to mention very embarrassing.

So yeah now that I am done with my little rant on sleepless nights and a zombie like me I think I really should stop procrastinating and get on with the day because the longer I sit here and wait the harder it will be, or so I think. 

I so just want to crawl back into bed and sleep.

Lost in a daze. Or something like that.

I hate to admit it but lately my life has been boring. I feel like I am wandering around in a daze. I find myself willing the day to be over and yet at the same time I also feel very busy. I guess Its because for so long I was on the go. Away from home. Running errands, hanging out with friends, dinner out, shopping, getting our nails done. There was always something. My mom visiting, Sub ball, convention, birthday parties and so on and now I have been a home body. I have cleaning and laundry and planning of things like Hannah's birthday party or the trip I might be taking for a summer vacation in MN. Its not like I don't have things to do, its just I miss the constant on the go way things were. Even today was busy. Let me give you a run down.

Woke up late, got Jordan off to school but barely.

Made breakfast, ate breakfast, cleaned up breakfast for Hannah and me.

Got us ready and dressed for the day.

Did some laundry, wiped down the counters and picked up the house.

Ran to Wal-mart.

Had friends over to deal with some last minute things from my Cookie Lee Party I had last week and talked with those friends.

Watched my friends kids.

Said goodbye to my friends kids and then watched another friends kids.

Made dinner, ate dinner, cleaned up after dinner.

Played with the kids and the dog.

Did more laundry.

Talked on the phone with my mom, with a few friends and yelled at a sales person.

Gave Hannah a bath.

Put the kids to bed.

And now here I am. Those are usual days. Running errands, cleaning, Laundry, friends, kids, dog, working out. In all reality I am busy, I am doing things and I am not sinking into oblivion with no life. So why do I feel so bored? Why do my days seem to stretch on for what seems like forever? 

Time for a change

So we are looking at moving out of housing. I have already gotten in touch with a place that helps find rental homes and I have seen a few places I really like online now its just going to see them in person, oh and finding a place that we can afford and will take a dog. 

I'm not crazy about the idea of actually moving our stuff. I hate that part, packing, moving, unpacking. However the idea of maybe having a bigger back yard and a fourth bedroom again is appealing. I would say we would buy, but lets face it we don't plan on staying here unless there is no other option so why would we buy? 

So yeah, that is what is going on with me. I also am looking at a possible job prospect, so wish me luck on that. A new place to live and a new job, big things are a coming. 

Tuesday morning babbling

If you were to look into my closet you would see one color more prominent then the rest. That color is blue. There is a shit ton of blue in my closet and yesterday as I shopped with a friend I noticed that was what I went for. I also like whites, blacks and grey. Everything I wanted was blue. Another thing that was pointed out is I have to many sweatshirts because it was also what I went for on our shopping trip, and what was even better is those adorable, comfy sweatshirts were on sale, but I refrained and walked away (after much pouting) I did pretty well and stuck as close to the gift cards as possible. I did have a close call at American Eagle when I had a struggle between two outfits and only the amount to buy one. I still want the other one. A cute pair of black trouser shorts and a cute black and white cami style top with lace. I'm rather sad because damn that outfit was cute, and to be fair I don't own a pair of casual and everyday black shorts like those and I could dress the top up or down. See, there I go trying to talk myself into an outfit I really should be talking myself out of, or at least talking myself out of until next payday. Damn my bad luck for never wining the lottery. I'm off to get dressed in my new blue t-shirt. 

Oh and a completely different note I am so sick of wind, cold and rain. Yesterday was horrible and icky and I want some sun so I don't look like death in shorts. Where is fun spring weather because lately it feels like fall and Its so not helping my mood. I need my sunshine.

No kids+friends+dancing+drinks=fun!

That would be me at the combined Birthday celebration for Amy and me when we went out to the on base club to drink, dance and play pool with a bunch of friends. If you can not tell, I was a bit drunk at this point. See the red nose? See the fact that I look like a giggling fool? yeah, I was buzzed.



It was a fun night. I so can not wait to do it again. I generally don't get wasted, I know when to stop or slow down. I mean I am a 95 pound woman so I know I have to watch how much I drink.

We started off drinking at my house, then went to the on base club then ended up at Amy's house. We walked, the one good thing about living on base and near the base club, and its a good thing since none of us would have been able to drive by nights end.

The music was good, we danced, we laughed, we drank and we danced some more. I think there was 10 of us at the club that night in our group. We got carded by the manage an hour into our night out. I think he thought because we had the guys buying most of the drinks we were underage, plus several of us looked it. He looked a bit shocked with what our actual age was because he said something like "I never would have thought" I even offered to show him my drivers license and my military dependant ID to prove my age though he said I did not need too.

After the club closed we attempted to walk to Amy's house for snacks since we were starving. I forgot what its like to go out drinking and dancing and the fact that usually at least for me my body craves food.

I cant wait to go back. Its fun to get out without the kids, with friends and just have fun. I hope though next time my husband will be able to go because it kind of sucked being the only one without a husband.