Oh, shiny

I was attempting to make out Christmas cards but gave up because its boring. I'm all about not having the attention span lately to sit threw much of anything. Chris says I look like a bouncy ball flying off the walls. I have no clue whats gotten into me, but I wish I could just stop and relax and not be so always on the go. Chris is not helping much as he sits on the couch playing his Christmas present from me on the PS3. Yes, you heard me right, he already has his Christmas presents from me and the kids and I have my gifts from them as well. See Chris asked me what I wanted and I told him, and I asked and he told me and then we went out and bought our gifts and the other day the question was brought up about what was the point of wrapping up our presents from each other and waiting till Christmas to tear the wrapping apart when we already know what our gifts are. I know, what is the fun in that? Usually there is more surprise, just not this year. I am happy to announce I got everything I wanted from my family, well the three most important things at least I mean there is a budget so obviously my brand new Armada did not make it this year as a gift from my beloved husband, maybe next year though.

Jordan is having a friend sleep over which means an up pretty much all night long experience. I don't mind so much seeing as it is the weekend and sleeping in is possible. Hannah is doing the whole pesky little sister routine and trying to be included with the boys who clearly have no interest in playing with a 5 year old girl. She is not happy about that one bit. Soon she too will be at the age of sleepovers with her friends and my house will be very chaotic on the weekends. Not sure if I am looking forward to that one yet, I'm sure my hair will be grey and I will be pulling it out.

So remember in the post where I said I think were moving to Hawaii? Yeah, I'm not freaking out over this possibility. See there are things I did not think about. Like where will we stay until we move into housing (obviously a hotel, but for how long, and what about the dog?) I am worrying about our stuff not getting wrecked (I love our stuff, we have nice stuff and its all pretty new, I don't want any of it breaking or getting wrecked) I worry about money. I mean staying in a hotel and renting cars will get expensive if it lasts awhile, and since they have to ship our vehicle(s) we wont have one right away which we will need. Also the Navy only ships one vehicle so we either sell the other one or pay for the other one to be shipped as well. Then there is the school issue, I have heard they are not the best and every one tells me Id be better off homeschooling then sending them to the public schools, though everyone who has told me that has never even been to Hawaii much less sent their kids to the schools there. My list of worries go on and on. Like how limited we would be able to come home, since airfare for 4 people is not the cheapest from Hawaii. Plus things over there cost much more, and though they have a commissary and NEX where things will be cheaper I'm not sure how much cheaper. See where I am going with this? Its very nerve racking. I'm now re-thinking the Hawaii move. I will admit that there are many up sides to moving, I just don't know if they are worth the down sides of moving. Guess Chris and I need to figure out what we want and what its worth to us. I know that things would work out, but still the unknown is always scary. Plus Chris admitted that he has no clue what he would be doing over there which means he might be going to sea (again) and I refuse after 8 years of him being on subs and going out to sea to move to Hawaii so we can continue with this lifestyle. I want our shore duty which we should already have been on by now instead of doing back to back sea tours. So yeah, if us going to Hawaii means more sea duty time that wont happen and Chris agrees 100% with me on that one. I love me husband and I want him home, its bad enough by the time he goes to Shore duty we will have spent almost 1200 days apart of our marriage. Sad huh? So yeah, I want my Shore duty before we continue with this Sea duty crap. Even if it means us staying here in Washington. So I guess I jumped on the Hawaii bandwagon and got excited to soon, but I promise to keep everyone updated about where we will be moving too, not like any of you care, but it is my life and my blog so it does not matter if you care or not.

Shinny object. Guess that means its time for me to go, other things to do, told you I couldn't sit still for long, good thing its December where we will be on the go all month long with 2 more picture sittings, our Bill Engvall show, family coming to visit and the holidays. I love December, now where is my snow?

And yet another twist.

So since it is Thanksgiving I wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. I just got done cooking and decided to take a break before getting ready before we head out the door and over to our friends house. So here I am.

I have news in regards to where we will be living when we move away from here, and sadly its not DC. However it is an Island, its usually 85 degrees year round and my kids are worried about Volcano's. Can you guess where we are moving too?

Honolulu. HI. I'm excited. Obviously we don't have the written orders, but that takes time. Chris will still be in special projects which is good for him because he wants to stay with that group and it will still help for advancement. We could have waited for the DC job, it was still Chris's if he wanted it but allot of downsides came with waiting almost another year for it, but I wont bore you with those details on why we are not waiting. So without taking the DC job that left us with staying here in lovely Silverdale, WA (OK, so its not that lovely, it rains all the time and though it is very pretty, and green and I love Seattle, and hiking I hate the constant rain) so here we come Hawaii.

Anyone want to visit us? Of course that offer is only good if I know you, there will be no strangers staying in our house.

I know, I know things still could change, I mean another spot could open up in DC and Chris could decide "hey, wait, I want that" but we don't know that for sure, so until we have written orders this Hawaii thing is only about a 95% done deal. I'm excited, have I mentioned that? I mean I really wanted to go to DC, but Hawaii isn't all that bad of a second choice either. OK, Ill stop babbling now like a silly school girl and stop with this craziness.

Tomorrow is a shopping day. Yes, I am braving the stores. Target and JCpennys only though. Target for a few deals we need and Penny's because our pictures we had taken will be ready for pick up (and I wouldn't mind looking at what they have for sale either) I have never shopped on a black Friday, EVER!!! did I mention that? so it will be interesting. Luckily we don't really need anything, more so its DVDs and we are hoping to get Jordan's birthday present too at Target because they have what he wants for a very good deal. Wish me luck, I'm not a crazy crowd person so I hope I don't bite someones head off, or go crazy myself. Maybe instead Ill just sleep the day away and not risk the chance. We shall see.

Chris just pointed out our big bottle of Baileys will go bad this month, guess I will be having some of that tonight, and tomorrow night and until its all gone. Heaven forbid that goodness goes bad.

Again Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

Are you ready?

Christmas. Its almost here, cant you just feel it? Yes, I am aware that we still have Thanksgiving to get by first but in all reality its just around the corner and this time next week it will have passed and as for my family we will be putting up the tree and the decor and having take out Chinese food as our tradition is usually. So really Christmas is not that far off at all. Scary huh? Even me who is practically done with all my shopping is still stressing on all things Christmas. Money is tighter this year and money needs to be stretched further due to covering other things (mainly needs) which really sucks, but I think I already mentioned that.

I only have a small handful of people to buy for, and two of those 4 gifts will be gift cards. Don't lecture me on the tackiness of gift cards because when you live half way across the country from certain people you need to buy for that you sadly only talk to a handful of times a year and that is mainly when you come to visit its hard to know what they need or want short of calling and asking and that seems even more tacky, so sending gift cards seems the best way to go. For the short list of recipients I need to buy for I am grateful. Which means no having to brave the stores once Thanksgiving has come and gone and they get much more crazy. Even my kids are done with the exception of the DVDs I will pick up for them that are not yet out, which are simple enough. See in our family each kids gets a pair of PJ's that suits their personality and a DVD. The PJ's are for Christmas morning (they get them Christmas Eve) and the DVDs are also for Christmas eve when we snuggle up in our new PJ's and watch the kids movies till they fall asleep while waiting for Santa to come. Obviously they are not excited about the PJ's every year but its kind of like a tradition for us and I can't seem to break it.

I love Christmas, have I mentioned that? I love the smell of candles (reminder, buy some new Christmas scented candles) the twinkling of the lights on the Christmas tree. I love the music and all the baking I tend to do, more so then any other year. I love the kids getting all dressed up and looking adorable and taking pictures (though I am sure this is not their favorite part) and the opening of family presents on Christmas Eve. I love putting the kids to bed and pretending to eat the cookies, drink the milk and unload all of Santa's gifts under the tree and filling the stockings with more goodies and then having the kids wake us up with the excitement in their eyes as they wait for us to get up (and wake up) before we give the OK to tear into the gifts while we watch their faces light up with smiles and say "cool" or "wow" yes, I love Christmas. I'm not crazy on how much money we spend, but I love the looks on the kids faces and the memories that are made. I remember being a kid, how much I loved this season, it must be where I got it from, I was always a Christmas fanatic growing up. Now Its about giving the same to my kids. 

I remember when we lived in GA, a place I loved for the warm weather, the beaches near by, but Christmas was the one time I did not like being there. I loved when we were able to escape to Minnesota to visit with Family and have a cooler Christmas with the promise of snow. It is the same here, Snow and the cold makes it feel more like Christmas, which is something I am grateful for, even though I generally despise most of the weather here in WA when it is mainly rain (its even raining now as I type, it is always raining) 

So there, that is my Christmas rant. 33 days to Christmas (I think) Now if only my husband would get a clue and stop buying me my gifts while I am present, I love him but he is not the most subtle person in the world. He never has been. 

Now we just sit and wait. The thought of Chinese food next Friday is making me very hungry by the way.

Rip off or mistake?

So I am sitting her waiting for Chris to bring Jordan back from his eye appointment and thought "what the hell Ill write something down" I'm not sure how long I have because the second they arrive we need to leave but Ill take my chances and start in on this anyways. Oh, and did you catch the first part of my blog, you know the part that says "I am waiting for Chris" Yep, that is right I have my husband back home, not sure for how long but all I care about right now is that he is here (I am super excited and happy about this) I was in tears yesterday when Jordan came home from school running up to the house screaming "daddy's home, I saw his truck, is he home, is he?" and at that moment Chris came out of the kitchen with a big old smile and Jordan screamed "daddy" and went running at him and threw himself into his arms to give him a big old hug and told Chris how much he missed him. It was so sweet that I wish I had been smart enough to pull out the camcorder and tape it, but I was not thinking. You noticed how I only had a sweet moment from Jordan? Yeah, that's because Hannah choose to act like it was just another day here in the house where daddy came home after being gone for almost 2 months and would have rather gone to her friends house to play. Yep, what a little love bug she is huh?

So anyway Jordan had an eye appointment. Did I mention that he has lazy eye? His eye tracks but it does not focus and we found this out back in like September I think at a normal eye exam where we were given a prescription for glasses that would help his good eye and then given the name of a specialist to help him fix the bad eye. Well Chris called to tell me that he has a totally different prescription then the one he got in September and now I am a bit pissed. I mean we shelled out a good amount of money for those glasses and now I find out that not only were they doing more harm then good but they were not the correct prescription. The new, very friendly specialist encouraged us to take the new prescription and go back to the old place and ask that they please re-do his glasses free of charge seeing as it has only been a few months and that they were way wrong with their findings. Yeah, so now that is where we are off to once Chris gets back, to raise some hell and hope that Jordan will have new glasses that we do not have to shell out money for by days end.

Ill let you know how it goes.

Me and my boring, uneventful life.

I am sitting here trying to write with a very big 70 pound golden retriever sitting in my lap. Its not easy, trust me, especially when she is always pawing at me to pet her. Does she not understand she is too big to be a lap dog?

I was sound asleep less then 30 minutes ago. Early for me to go to be at 8pm but Hannah was asleep, Jordan is old enough to put himself to sleep at 9pm (though I did get up and make sure he actually went to bed though I am pretty sure I heard some toy playing going on after lights out) and after a crummy and depressing day all I wanted to do was sleep. Honestly I am so sick of this patrol that I could sleep the rest of it away. Gone is my usual perky self and instead sits a very grumpy, depressed me, not something I am proud of. I have done this before, I have (the patrols) many of them, and I will do many more, but all I want is my husband home. I'm not sure if its the holidays right around the corner or the fact that I am bursting at the seams to talk to him and tell him, I just miss my husband. Yeah, I know your sick of my bitching and moaning about this, but then again it is my blog and you can deal with it. My point is and I got way off track (sort of) is that I was sound asleep and now I am awake, and bored. All the good books have been read, all the TV serious we have on DVD have been watched and I have no desire to sit and channel surf. This sucks, this no ambition thing I have going on.

So here is a reminder to myself, when I go to Costco this weekend to pick up allot of books. To help with these moments where I need something to do and a book is always something that I am up to. Of course if I were smart Id avoid Costco all together seeing as I love that place and tend to spend more money then I budget and buy things we don't need. Maybe Barnes and noble is a better fit, or Amazon.com? Places I wont get in to much trouble with.

Im bored. did I mention that?

The ramblings of a sleep deprived me.

Already my possible row one tickets are now possible row three tickets, still not bad but without a husband to tell my "yes honey, get the tickets, I will be there" I stare at ticket masters website thinking "should I or shouldn't I?" I'm tempted to tell my mom that we want tickets for this show for Christmas and screw the need for bras from Victoria secrets. Of course that does not change Chris not being able to go if he cant but hey, I could always bring a friend right? I never said what we wanted to go see, and no its nothing like a cool concert just Bill Engvall who we love!!!! What really pisses me off is a few days ago I heard some of the best words in my life "You have a phone tree message" It was on my machine and my first thought was "yes, hubby is coming home" yeah, no not so much what I had hopped for, instead it was the opportunity to send a letter to the hubby which by all means is still a great thing, just not compared to the hopes of a husband home by now. However I did not know about this concert until after the letters were sent off. This is so going to bug me until I choose to be bold and spend the money even though I am a huge stickler for saving, and hope for the best, or just say "forget it, we will see him some other time" Damn my indecisiveness this is driving me rather nuts, but Im sure you can tell by basically a repeat post of the same ramblings from a few hours earlier. I would just bring a friend and say forget Chris and money would not be wasted, a babysitter could be found (seeing as the friend I would bring currently is the babysitter) and I would get to go, but that would not be to fair to the husband who if he was here would be left behind and not happy for he too would want to go. Im just not that mean to leave my husband out like that. 

OK, Im stopping now, no really, I am. Enough over thinking and freaking out. Deep breaths, and I am moving on. Better, nope, not really.

My daughter is living in an imaginary world of make believe. Good for her using her imagination, though her imagination is starting to get into trouble. for instance her friend from ballet class ate all the M&M's today. Even though Hannah's hands were the ones covered in the dye from the candy. Every time she gets into trouble she blames her imaginary friends for doing whatever it was that got her into trouble, and the look she gives you as she spins the story is so cute you want to laugh instead of lecture. Currently her imagination is on a ballet class she attends with a very nice teacher who told her to practice twirling and jumping on our bed and all her friends in the class. Oh and I guess according to her teacher she needs a pink ballet dress (her words, not mine) And before you go assuming she has no friends and that is why she is using her imagination she does have friends. I think its wanting to go off to school with Jordan and her love for Ballet. In our house it never gets boring, Hannah makes sure of that. 

She still doesn't have much hair. I have been giving her vitamins with Iron in them to help promote healthy hair growth but its hard to tell. I imagine if its a vitamin deficiency verses the short hair anagen syndrome it will take a few months to notice, though I swear I see the slightest of growth, but then that is the hoping and wanting I think more then the actual seeing. The other day we were out at the grocery store and some lady had the nerve to walk up to me glaring like I was so horrible monster and asked me "what in earth did you do to that child's hair" and then walked away before I could even respond. I actually get this allot. Do people really think I shave or cut my daughters hair to make her look bald? Maybe I should just dress her up like a boy and people will think nothing of the barely any hair thing and leave us alone with their rude comments, though that would require a whole new wardrobe and I think Chris would veto that idea pretty fast. (And yes, I am kidding about actually passing her off as a boy)

And why is it my son has school tomorrow but not on Tuesday? I get why they don't have school on Tuesday with it being Veterans day, but Jordan was not happy about going to bed at 9PM to get up for school tomorrow and then have Tuesday off. He tried talking me into letting him stay home tomorrow which I admit I almost caved in and agreed upon but off to school he must go and learn new things. Still, It would have been nice to let the kids have a 4 day long weekend, but I don't make up the rules.

See, my life is exciting. Kids and dogs and husbands who are away due to work. I'm off to install games onto my new mac laptop (I've had this thing for over a month and still haven't done that yet, I think its about time) or better yet I could try to get some sleep since its already 1 in the morning, but what fun would that be.

Gosh darn it! talk about frustrating

OK. Right now I wish I could talk to my husband. I am going crazy here trying to refrain myself from spending 120 dollars of two tickets to a show I know we would love to go see. I can even get 1st row seats right now and as the minutes tick by I know that eventually If I don't act now I might not get anywhere near the 1st row. So whats the problem? Well Chris is gone, out to sea and though he should be here for the night what if I order them and he says "sorry honey, cant do it" so I have two choices. Order the tickets and spend the money on a show we really, really want to see (and is only here for one night) and hope he will be here to see it with me, or wait for him to get home and take my chances with crappier seating if any seating but know that he can or cant not go which would save me possibly 120 dollars. Can I scream now?

Right now 120 dollars is allot. Well considering that its near Christmas, and Chris's birthday, and Jordan's Birthday so there is allot of things coming up that we will need money for, and though I don't mind spending the money if we can go, its the worry of if we cant go. I even have a babysitter set up and everything. This is torture, pure torture.

This truly sucks by the way.