Stressed

First off If I give my son a pop tart and chocolate milk for breakfast I am not a bad mom. I know someone who thinks that Chocolate milk is evil. I get there are people out there who don't do sugar with their kids, but I'm not one of them, my kids get sugar, they eat healthy foods too but they do get sugar so don't judge me.

Second I don't know why my daughter doesn't have hair yet. The doctors have looked and so far are not concerned by her lack of hair, I'm already worried and upset by her very thin, fine, blond hair that just isn't coming in and the fact that soon, by months end she will be 4, so please don't make me feel worse by making a rude comment, I cant do anything to make it grow, though I wish I could. The only thing I can do is give her milk, vitamins and will it to grow, and one day, maybe not soon but eventually she will have hair, or so I hope and pray or else I will need to invest in wigs so she doesn't get teased in school.

Third someone tell my daughter the big potty wont eat her or swallow her. Tell her its not scary because she wont listen to me and it has left us with having to bring where ever we go a potty chair and I am so sick of dumping out the potty chair (ick, ick, and more ick) that's just yucky. I know Ive vented before about this and I'm sure Ill be venting for sometime, but I'm so ready for her to use the big potty, so very ready.

Fourth. I don't think I will be able to fit everything in the Van for our trip to MN. I have 3 suitcases, one duffle bag filled with random things, one sea bag, a wii fit box, several birthday presents, a dog, a garment bag, a potty, a cooler, and all of us, plus the van topper filled with more stuff that I feel safe having on top of the van. oh, and lets not forget the overnight bag in case we do break down and stop for the night at a hotel or the kids need a change of clothing. I worry, but it all has to fit, I guess we will see Thursday when I pack it up, since we leave That night I have no choice but to make it all fit and still hope we can be comfortable because 24 hours plus of driving wont be fun if we aren't comfortable.

Okay I'm sick of numbering my random thoughts, so I'm skipping the numbering.

I hate high gas prices, as I'm sure everyone else does too right now. This trip is going to make me hate it even more. Today I filled up and it was 4.29, I wanted to cry, but still driving to MN was cheaper then flying for the four of us and the dog and lets us stay longer so we will drive, and when we fill up we will grin and bare it. (and cry on the inside when we pull the receipt after we are done filling up. Next summer wont come soon enough, that is when we will finally trade in our Truck (okay, its Chris's truck) and by my hybrid. We have to wait till then because the truck is only a year old and has lost value since people don't want big 4X4 trucks, meaning if we do it now we will go negative, and if we wait a year we will still go negative but we can handle it, if that makes any sense. I'm sure Chris is dreading the day, but not me, I cant wait. Yes its a very pretty truck and he loves it but we don't need a truck and a van, so bye bye truck (and sorry honey, I promise you can buy your bike when you sell it, so dont be too sad)

I think I'm out of thoughts spinning threw my mind, okay well Im not, but Im just to tired to continue. I should be sleeping, but I cant. I'm so tired but every time I lay down I just cant seem to fall asleep. I toss and turn which is keeping Chris up in the process and he has to get up at the butt crack of dawn. When I stress I cant sleep, and right now I'm stressing big time, to much to do and just not enough time to do it in, but Saturday it will all be over, and I can relax and start enjoying our time in MN, or at least I hope I can.